I often curse myself

For not having the things I once desired

Dreamed of, made a wish list with,

Those things remained a faraway dream for me

And they kept chasing me till I broke down and cried.

But when I journey inward,

I have the visions of the moments

That made me feel

The purpose behind this birth was fulfilled.

The moment when someone saved me from falling downstairs

The moment when someone saved me from going under the railway tracks

The moment when someone saved my father from falling from the car

The moment when the four of us were saved from drowning in the river

Aren’t they enough to utter a spell of gratitude?

When I look around,

I feel the scarcity in my material life

The absence of the things that were part of my life’s plan

But when I look within,

I feel the glow of gratitude beaming in my heart

And I realize that living a life with a purpose

Is all about surrendering myself to the greater landscape

Where my life is filled with

The gifts from the universe.

(This poem is part of the series titled ‘Journey Inward’, where I am going to publish 26 poems on spirituality, introspection and self-discovery. You can read the other poems of this series from here.)

(I’m participating in #BlogchatterA2Z)

(I am also participating in the Global A to Z Blogging Challenge 2025 and the Na/GloPoWriMo Challenge 2025.)